The start of another day, Creator!
Dear Guides, help me find the flow and direction this morning; point my craft downstream to fulfillment and satisfaction. I realize there are so many different avenues that deliver so many different shades of satisfaction. Please open my mind and heart to appreciate what I have, what I’m offered, and what I can give.
Sometimes, still, I make stupid choices that are unwise and unhelpful, in that they are stuck in avoidance and procrastination. I used to just see them as laziness and sloth, which is a part of it; but I recognize them now more as a technique and strategy to avoid the stuff that my old thinking still says is hard and scary.
For example, I was initially excited to start these pages this morning; but, for whatever reason, I became conscious of myself, and concerned with what to write – so I procrastinated.
And that quickly and easily, my spiral began about self-judgment. I knew I was avoiding, and I told myself I was wasting time; so the self-criticism began.
The powerful thing I’ve learned, though, is that the solution, for me, can take effect almost as quickly. I just need to pick now to redirect myself and take on something that I will value completing.
When I get stuck, I can break free by just doing – almost anything that I value.
So, this morning I started writing – not know what to write. But, here, I’ve shared my vulnerability and process, and a page has already been filled.
Sometimes, it really seems mystical what appears in these pages. I mean, they are a part me; but, I also recognize that they are deeper than me, in the sense that they go further than I have ever gone in revealing the ticking, moving parts under the surface of me.
Julia Cameron (author of The Artist’s Way) describes the phenomenon, in writing Morning Pages, that, even when what is appearing on the pages seems scattered and murky, there is very often delivery of some clarifying, enlightening awareness near the end of the second page.
How does that happen? Why does it happen?
I have a hunch that, at least for me, it takes that much time, and space, maybe, to get into a rhythm, get less mechanical in my writing and thinking; in order to hear, or just write, the words you send me, Creator.
I am frequently surprised by what appears. Yet, in some way, I know it as also always some part of me.
There is an idea that everyone and everything we encounter actually offers us some reflection of ourselves; and, by noticing that, with that understanding, we learn more about ourselves and find compassion for those around us.
I believe it’s related to something I mentioned yesterday – the idea that when we are authentic (or not), we send out “something” that can be sensed by others. So, as they are affected, even in perhaps very subtle ways; they respond. And, likewise, we sense the measure of their authenticity.
I envision it looking like the ripples in a pond – as our ripples propagate out from us; they contact the ripples of others. Both ripples are changed by the other, so that when my ripple reaches them, it’s different, by a measure of their ripple. Likewise, when their ripple reaches me, my outward ripple has altered it.
I don’t believe there’s any right or wrong to this; but, it’s powerful to understand the effect we have on all things. The energy, attitude, and perspective we bring to the world, and to our day, create what shows up, and what we are given.
That’s why, when I pay attention to my role models – who I respect, who I would most like to emulate – I now believe that what I am envisioning is the best me I can imagine being.
When I think “What would the Buddha do, or Jesus, Gandhi, Mandela, Aung San Suu Kyi, Thich Nhat Hahn, The Dalai Lama, Pema Chodron, …?”, I believe it is the way I see my own deepest, most true self, and who I desire and am inspired to be.
It is how I envision myself guided by my Love and Peace, devoid of all my fears and doubts. It is a blessed, courageous vision, and one that gives me hope.
Every day, there’s no limit to the directions I can go. Therefore, no limit on the day I can have, the effect I can have, and the life I can live. I can make eye contact and smile with people, or I can cast my eyes down and grumble to myself. I can forge forward, or stay hidden. I can radiate love and compassion, or fear and judgment.
We truly do create the world we live in, with what we think, believe, and do. I choose Love!
Thank you for giving me these words, Great Spirit!
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